|Last night was crazy and sad at the same time.
||[May. 21st, 2005|06:07 am]
|||||sad and satisfied||]|
WOW!!! I think last night was one of the best nights i've had this term. We all had our last TIL dinner in the basement at this pub. the food was awesome, had mozzerlla/tomato/pesto, steak w/ potatoes, and that disgusting lemon tart. great times, lots of laughter. the wine kept coming, we were all absolutely drunk by the end of the dinner. got to sit with everyone that i wanted to be with w/o any discomfort or wanting to be with anyone at other tables. it was so nice seeing sonam after ages!!! we all had fun laughters: going to sniff coke in the bathroom, signing the different fuck signs in asl and bsl (bsl signing stuff my terp was teaching us *snickers*), the toast adam gave, adam being drunkingly loud and silenced the room by accident(heehee), flirting with jon, getting pens with TIL on it, jaki's fun speech, jaki and bob-writing the message on the napkin and emily trying to hide it in her "traveling purse", meangirls, the scary cow's head, lots of different end of the year toasts, too much wine, and lots of hugs and kisses with some goodbyes. :-(
after the wonderful dinner, a bunch of us went to the union and post union fun at the court for the very last time and got completely trashed. will post pictures soon. adam blacked out for the last 2 hours of the night before passing out. saying lots of goodbyes to my british friends and some american friends that i wouldnt see until hopefully the summer or next year. i realized how much fun i had with them and it was so hard letting go. came home, drunkingly raced to the bathroom with adam (he beat me). drunkingly typed to my friends from home and natalie. i don't remember what i specifically said but i do remember that i wasn't typing coherently at times. lol. then we passed the fuck out.
i woke up this morning and talked to adam a bit... he kept saying i love you i love you and then said i'm going to miss you. that was when it finally hit me that i was leaving for good after the most amazing year of my life. he's going home tomorrow and i probably wont see him for a few weeks bec we both have family obligations and work. we're really sad letting go the people we met here, especially the british people from the hockey team, my flatmates, my interpreters, and most of all jaki. now we're all like fuck ucl and their school system and most of all of our how our grades is gonna affect our gpa, but fuck it because the social life beat everything. i really don't wanna go home. i don't want to leave this awesome place that changed my life forever. i think for the first time in my life i'm so sad letting go the people that i met here and knowing that i probably won't ever see them again for a really really long time. i'm terribly sad of leaving my flat mates. my living situation with them was the best. i'm so happy that i was forced to live here instead of astor. i love my room, having my own bathroom, and having an awesomely clean/big kitchen (sometimes!!). again i'm so glad many of us (london-er americans) will be nearby and most of us will be in NYC, conneticut, NJ, and Long island. i will miss some of my other bestfriends like nat and patty who will be pretty far away. :-( three months is too long. but eh, i guess i need to learn how to move on because we're all going to go our separate ways when we graduate. that will be probably be harder. but i don't know.
and again i'd have to say i love LONDON!!! london is the place that changed my life forever. i don't wanna leave. but i am leaving in less than 4 days. *choke sobs*